I look out the window [the sunrise shines through]
I sip on teacups of floorcleaner and turps [its my own little party]
And as I feel the pull of death [oh, how relieving]
I run the razor along my skin and let my love pour out [its so cold]

I think of you as my breath shortens [I am suffocating]
I see you before me [hallucinations]
A tear runs down my face [as scarlet as my stained skin]
As I think of what we were [what we aren't anymore]

I smile to myself [I can finally let go]
I think of you [now you are free, my love]
I think to myself [how lucky I was to have you]
How wonderful you were [you were perfect]

My chest tightens [I'm almost gone]
I let more tears fall [I'm going to miss you, dear]
I close my eyes [and think of you]
I sigh my last breath [my heart beat stops]

My last thought was of you [if you can't have me, no one can]